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Name: CHARR! (:
Birthday: 4/15/1994
Gender: Female
Interests: DARE;DARECHOIR;
Occupation: DRAGON, RAWRRR
Industry: Chocolate Factory! :D
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Member Since:
4/18/2007
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| Today's service was so for meeee. Ahha Thank you Daddy.
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| .. Who am I kidding, right?
I think I'm so full of shit too.
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| Couldn't sleep at all last night.
Random spurts of anger kept coming, I couldn't fall asleep at all.
Then when I finally did, the dream was so sweet that I thought it was real:/
Then jasmine woke me up cuz she was looking for the phone on the bed.
So when I woke up this morning, I thought of the compre story that I read on thursday about this guy who has a super positive attitude everyday.
Then he said something about waking up every morning with two decisions: To be happy, or to be sad.
So I thought, I'm not going to let these kinda things spoil my whole day anymore.
I don't want anyone to see me emo-ing or whatever shit thing.
I decided that I should be happy today, just like how you would even if these kinda things happen.
Why do you always seem the least affected?..
Made an effort to get out of bed, to be on time, to pick what I should wear.
Made myself think of Choir, of Dare- which has come back after so long.
Of Shaun who's serving in Choir again.
Tried to put aside all my negative thoughts and tried to enjoy Choir session, serving.
But as the day progressed, it kinda deteriorated..
Everytime the tears decide that it should start leaking over,
Something solid hits my heart, and then it was as if that feeling never came before.
I'm left emotionless for awhile, then the dead feeling comes.
Then I hate myself, for saying all those hurtful things in the spite of my anger.
For some reason.. I have a feeling that this time, I won't be forgiven at all.
It doesn't matter at all...
Right?
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| CHEMICAL EQNS ARE DRIVING ME NUTSSSSSSSSSSS):
So is math, bio( because I have not really studied it, and I'm really wondering if what I understand from homeostasis is enough to score for tmr's test) and..
SS, because I have been failing yearround and since I was only around for ONE of her lessons this whole headstart, I'm scared that I might fail. They said the test this time round is 'true or false' kinda questions.
If liddat I also cannot score already then....
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Oh bummer.
MATH is really a female dog, because I don't really understand what rad rad rad shat dad dood. sheeet. -.-
Okay, maybe I do. Cuz I FINALLY asked Lisa to explain it to me today.
But I don't think it's enough. My brain's pretty fried up over Chem calc.s already!
Ommgomgggggggggggggggggggggggggggg):
Daddy help! :(
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| Rar I gotta stoppit, stoppit stoppit stoppit.
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I'm a smelly welly person now.
Gonna bathe!
Hahah have been really hooked onto word challenge recently(:
Tmr got 4 tests in a row
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Brain fry.
Gonna study.
Poof.
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