| It feels like it's been a long time since I felt truly happy just purely cuz I've encountered Jesus, really:/
Today started out kinda shitty, I even dreaded going for choir for the first time in my entire choir life:/
I contemplated asking for permission not to serve and stand amongst the crowd instead.
But then when I went, what Joy brought in kinda rubbed on me, I enjoyed myself and I was thinking, heck. I'm gonna serve no matter what.
I did enjoy serving! Laughed along with all the choir people.
Maybe it's cuz this time round lots of the oldies( people who used to be in the DARE choir) came back, and I recognised more faces and felt more comfortable .
And during the last part of service where we sang those last, fast songs, I felt for the first time, in a really really ultra long time that I'm jumping with the joy of the lord in me, that every word that came out of my mouth came out of my heart,and I was really rejoicing the Lord . Not with, but THE lord.
There's really a difference when you're going with the flow and receiving from it, and actually IN the flow and receiving from it.
Ahh it felt like a breath of fresh air.
Spoke to Coach Heehee after camp briefing and all too, I guess it's good to let it all out when after saying whatever, I don't feel even more condemned.
Sigh.
I'm yearning, alot alot for daddy.
I kinda feel like a little girl who doesnt get enough attention.
I know he's there, but I kinda don't feel it, y'know.
I guess like what Coach Heehee said....
Something that I know but don't know how to form it out in a sentance again because I forgot.
Something about feeling.
Hmmm.
I really miss Daddy's huge, comforting presence.
Kinda feel lost most of the time nowadays, and I become a cranky old grandma.
Sigh.
Daddyy.
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| heh I think the part I'm most looking forward to is the PnW during camp(:
Yay.
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| Go away go away go away go away you bad thingggggggggggggggggggg
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| Been a long time since I last blogged! Ahhahha.
Well, at least I think it was.
Just don't really know what to blog about nowadays.
Can't really type what I wanna say here, right?
Anyway, I just came home from sending melia off at the airport(:
Spent the afternoon with Shennel and Sam,
Then met Lisa and Yanru for swensons Icecreammm(:
Yay.
Melia's gonna come back at the 9th of dec! hahhaha. Then flying off again to America at 16th I think.
...
After some time of staying off the comp, my typing is kinda off now:/
Bah.
So irritating.
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Jesus is in control , right?
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I have to keep reminding myself that.
What I really wanna do now is...
But it doesn't come out that easily.
Ah.
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| Today's service was so for meeee. Ahha Thank you Daddy.
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